katiemonster - katie eat world

~i like the dirt that's on your knees~nickleback

2010-10-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

i have a theory;

women like men who are a little scruffy,

a little covered in dirt,

just as much as

(if not more than)

gentlemanly scrubbed up men.

or maybe i just want to mack gerard butler....

he he

keats

2010-10-06T05:44:00.000-07:00

2010-10-05T03:01:00.000-07:00

Dear Ashton,

as i have said before, i would very much like to make babies with you.

what do you say?

you will be missed.

2010-10-05T02:35:00.000-07:00

Rest In Peace Nanna,

may angels lead you in.

~i want something else to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life~thirdeyeblind

2010-10-03T03:41:00.000-07:00

all your heart are belong to me.

yeah, my heart has a spikey collar coz it's a maddog

And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right.

~hold me, wrap me up, unfold me~sia

2010-10-02T06:54:00.000-07:00

either way,

i can't breath without you.

i wanted to put "you can breathe now" here

but i couldn't find i good video of it.

You waited for me in the rain
In the parking lot
Cold hands, lips blue
Clothes stuck to you
You could have phoned me for a ride
It's a mess out there
you said the rain's the rain
Some air'd be good for you...

You get in my car
Where its warm
You cannot forget
skin new, hands true
My hands all over you
so whats another night
The seats rolled back
We can't see through
The rains the rain
Some air'd be good for you

You can breathe, you can breathe now
You can breathe, but the air is running out.

duck says 'be awesome'

2010-10-02T05:53:00.000-07:00

have told my friend i'd make a shirt inspired by him.

i got stuck for a while..

but i think i like the third one best.

for duck and mel:

feedback perhaps?

~don't you slip in love with the girls on the avenue~richardclapton

2010-09-29T04:51:00.000-07:00

life.

i guess i just have to learn to live with it.

2010-09-19T19:23:00.001-07:00

back soon

summer

2010-09-19T03:23:00.000-07:00

o this summer coming, i promise to embrace you.

i will soak you into my skin as i never have before.

i long for you like lovers lost.
to dear summer coming, i am waiting.

jena ardell:

this summer

my hair will catch the colours of the sun

my skin will soak up the heat

the water will sparkle like diamonds on fire

by the water is where we will meet

i will not love you

nor will you love me

but in the humidity of the night

we will be free

i want a summer romance.

though i suppose every girl does...

how many cups of sugar does it take to get to the moon?

2010-09-13T22:41:00.000-07:00

mildly in love with this movie.

okay, maybe absolutely and utterly crazy about it.

may or may not of had a massive crush on max and his surly teenagerness.

damn my early childhood cartoon-crushes.

~crazy, crazy for feeling so lonely. i'm crazy, crazy for feeling so blue~patsycline

2010-09-13T05:08:00.000-07:00

isn't it a sad story

all the music in my heart

is leaking out through the pinholes

~like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound~

someone sang this today.

i remembered that i love this song.

~i don't the world to see me, because i don't think that they'd understand~googoodolls

2010-09-11T20:47:00.000-07:00

"my first thought was, he lied in every word,"

that is the opening line of Childe Roland to the Dark Tower Came by Robert Browning.

i suggest you read it one day, when you have the time.

this is the book i'm reading right now.

it's lovey-dovey so far, but nice.

it makes me sad.

but i needed a break from the wheel of time.

i was getting obsessed.

my chest hurts from where i fell asleep on my friend's arm.

and my head hurts from the FalconPunch.

i dislike sundays.

il m'aime....... pas du tout...

2010-09-09T03:53:00.000-07:00

a collection of images i have found caught in the web.

i am just trying to express myself with the words of others.

Bright star, would I were stedfast as thou art

Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night

And watching, with eternal lids apart,

Like nature's patient, sleepless Eremite,

The moving waters at their priestlike task

Of pure ablution round earth's human shores,

Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask

Of snow upon the mountains and the moors

No yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,

Pillow'd upon my fair love's ripening breast,

To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,

Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,

Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,

And so live ever--or else swoon to death.

~life's too short to be afraid~robbiewilliams

2010-09-05T01:40:00.000-07:00

i am writing instead of drawing lately.

my apologies.

~a pair of star-crossed lovers take their lives~shakespeare

2010-08-31T03:14:00.000-07:00

these violent delights have violent ends.

and in their triumph die, like fire and powder.

which, as they kiss, consume.

-romeo&juliet

i can't tell you what it really is, i can only tell you what it feels like. right now, there's a steel knife in my windpipe. i can't breathe, but i still fight while i can fight. as long as the wrong feels right, it's like i'm in flight. high off love, drunk off my hate. it's like i'm huffing paint and i love it, the more i suffer the more i suffocate. and right before i'm about to drown she resuscitates me, she fucking hates me. and i love it. wait, where you going? i'm leaving you. no you aint. come back, we're running right back, here we go again. it's so insane. cause when it's going good, it's going great. i'm superman with the wind at his back, she's lois lane. but when it's bad, it's awful. i feel so ashamed. i snap 'who's that dude?' i don't even know his name. i laid hands on her, i'll never stoop so low again. i guess i don't know my own strength. you ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe? when you're with them, you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em, got that warm fuzzy feeling. yeah, get chills, used to get them. now you're sick of looking at them. you swore you'd never hit them, never do nothing to hurt them, now you're in each other's faces spewing venom in your words when you spit them. you push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, hit them, throw them down, pin them. so lost in the moments when you're in them. it's the rage that's the culprit, controls you both. so they say it's best to go your separate ways, guess that they don't know you, cause today, that was yesterday, yesterday is over. it's a different day. sound like broken records playing over, but you promised her. next time you'll show restraint. you don't get another chance, life's no nintendo game. but you lied again. now you get to watch her leave out the window, guess that's why they call it window pane. now i know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean. and we fall back into the same patterns, the same routine. but your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me, when it comes to love you're just as blinded. baby please come back, it wasn't you, baby it was me. maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems? maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. all i know is that i love you too much to walk away, though. come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk. don't you hear sincerity in my voice when i talk? told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball. next time i'm pissed i'll aim my fist at the drywall. next time there wont be no next time. i apologize, even though i know it's lies. i'm tired of the games, i just want her back. i know i'm a liar. if she ever tries to fucking leave again, i'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire...

just gonna stand there and watch me burn.

well, that's alright because i like the way it hurts.

just gonna stand there and hear me cry.

well, that's alright because i love the way you lie.

i love the way you lie.

then we got to the intersection and your blinker blinked right and mine blinked left. that was the end of the story...

i guess.

~just gonna stand there~eminem

2010-08-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

i love the way
music
it can find
my deepest fears
my darkest thoughts
my unspoken pains.
music.
cuts deep.

♥

you were a truth i would rather lost than to have never lain beside at all~deathcabforcutie

2010-08-22T02:36:00.000-07:00

I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking,
As we moved together in the dark.
And all the friends that I was telling,
All the playful misspellings
and every bite I gave you left a mark.

Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade.
But they did, and so did I that day...

So one last touch and then you'll go.
We'll pretend that it meant something so much more,
But it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.

xo.

~i have friends who (lalalalie) will help me pull through~jack'smannequin

2010-08-19T03:18:00.000-07:00

an old picture. i stumbled upon it. i felt the need to post it.

~oh instincts are misleading, you shouldn't think what you're feeling~deathcabforcutie

2010-08-18T20:35:00.000-07:00

~they don't tell you what you know you should want.~

bubbles.

they are fun.

katie make picture.

~separate's always better when there's feelings involved~outkast

2010-08-11T00:30:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhZ5-L9znt8

sometimes the hardest thing is the right thing.

sometimes speaking your mind is telling lies.

doing the right thing in all the wrong ways.

with love,

fred.

salty wenches

2010-08-03T23:03:00.000-07:00

last night was pirate night with Jacky-Legs and Jimmy.

we drank rum.

it's horrid.

now we know why the rum is always gone.

(because jack drinks it all and then it's gone. and it never comes back. ever.)

hopefully there will be real pictures on fb. but we drank the rum before the picture-taking so they might be a bit of a shambles, with all our heads missing and upside down or sideways angles. i love drinking photos. ♥ .

SO, here is my artistic representation:

we pillaged we plundered we ate pizza.

a good night.

xo.

the song that's been in my head since the idea formed:

next is cowboy night, ye-ha!

~love will not betray you, dismay, or enslave you. it will set you free~mumfordandsons

2010-07-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

hihihihihihihi!

wotcha doin?

nm.

[shuffle]

i am going to Mumford and Sons tomorrow.

woop.

with emily.

emily did my tarot reading yesterday.

it was great.

to the question i asked them the cards told me i made the right decision. stick with it. be strong. nourish my inner child, 'fake it till you you make it' when it comes to happiness, be bold, strong and embrace my sensuality ;)

much better than my last reading.

i had all the cards with swords in them,

(just so that my picture makes more sense)

this picture kindof looks like my friends man. haha.

i just realised that.

i do not like him much.

[shuffle]

going to have a pirate night with some friends.

we shall dress as pirates and drink rum.

arrr!

Book: The Wheel Of Time, The Eye Of The World - Robert Jordan. very Tolkien-ish. first book in the series, i like the glee-man.

Youtube:

man oh man do i wish the extremely small shorts and open front flannies would come back in fashion. haha.

man overboard - blink182

2010-07-25T05:03:00.000-07:00

wanna make out?

[shuffle]

i was out for dinner the other night when one of my friends said to me;

"i don't mean to be rude, but your boyfriends (ex boyfriends) aren't very nice to you."

sadly, my response was, "yeah, i know."

so.

here is MY project. *cof*fuckprojectnolimits*cofcofcof*. i call it Project Katie. (it's a working project).ha. it will pretty much be me trying to be happy. i haven't been very good at being happy for a good part of my life, but i am really honestly working on it now. i'm getting all the help i can.... it took alot of guts to face upto my mistakes and even more to do something to correct them.. sometimes the right thing is the hardest thing to do of all.. i'm lucky to have awesome friends. SO, heres to Project Katie. it will involve alot more time being a member of Distortion, being active, drinking too much and trying to spend as much time as humanly possible with people who are good for me (as opposed to hiding in my house with my face hidden in books). i'm going to be the girl who runs into people because she's too absorbed in the pretty clouds again(#peter). i'm going to get my paint on. oh yeah. I AM GOING TO DANCE.

i hope that you will be seeing more of my face around town. i said to mr's lyndon and bmac that i would be happy to host more of our freeza gigs, even if i am so not pro at being on stage and forget all my words and drool over the bands. ha.

so i have to post this now so my friend can read it. her name is amber. she has nice boobs. (y)

~love don't live here anymore~dallasgreen

2010-07-19T06:32:00.000-07:00

an old scribble.

felt relevant.

city&colour, i just want to wrap you around me like a blanket and cry....

~a candy-coloured clown they call the sandman~royorbison

2010-07-16T04:01:00.000-07:00

i had a dream.

i looked into their eyes and saw the universe.

i have had these dreams about a person i am yet to meet these past two nights.

this person who lights up my nightmares is welcome to keep stepping into my dreams.

i don't know why.... they make me want to draw again.

so to my mysterious dream walker/wish-fulfilment subconscious,

thankyou.

xo.

just one reason why my mum is adorable

2010-07-15T06:38:00.000-07:00

~i'll sit at home and refine the person i want to be~charleighissocoollike

2010-07-14T18:28:00.000-07:00

if my demons are to be with me my whole life,

i'd rather they be the ones on a leash.

here are some songs that have made me smile lately:

(he is very very cute. thankyou kimmet)

la la la

~when city streets, a mess with people, stop to hold their heads heavy~imogenheap

2010-07-11T20:03:00.001-07:00

sometimes, all you can do is cry.

it's a lovely day outside.

maybe i will go out and try to be lovely too...

kimmet posted this lovely little blog on her profile,

http://colormekatie.blogspot.com

i hope it makes you smile.

love always, katie.

~such a quiet joy~gotye

2010-07-10T01:33:00.000-07:00

i was at work today when i got the strangest of sensations in my tummy. then it spread to my chest. then my arms. "oh no!" thought i, "am i going to be sick? Am i having an asthma attack? am i going to die?!"... and then it struck me, a goofy grin sliding onto my face, i felt happy.

real, true blue happiness was spreading around my body like some sort of wondrous disease.

hi, i'm katie. i tend to smell like strawberry bubblegum and i think that maybe, just maybe, i am getting some of my muchness back.

i even drew a picture for no reason other than i felt like it.

it's just a scribble.

not quite upto real art just yet.

it's been too long.

and and here is the song what goes with it :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4gPZPKJc0s

book: i'm reading 'a funny thing happened on the way to the future' by Michael J Fox.

it's lovely. like having a conversation of a hot cup of tea. i haven't finished yet, but i find it both funny and inspiring. do read if you are in your late teens, he has some sort of advice. xo.

oh and here is an awesomer blog:

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/05/sneaky-hate-spiral.html

~i want someone provocative and talkative, but it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower~cuteiswhatweaimfor

2010-07-06T03:07:00.000-07:00

hi there.

so, i have been trying this whole socialising and making new friends thing.

but i have a problem, every time i open my mouth

i end up shoving my foot in it.

i'm not exactly sure how to solve this problem....

any suggestions will be appreciated.

talking to pretty boys is a whole 'nother problem :s

love katie xo

this too shall pass.

2010-07-03T02:57:00.000-07:00

sometimes

life sucks.

sometimes

it has to suck real bad

before it can get better...

i broke up with my boyfriend.

life seems quite intensely suck-y right now.

sorry to everyone i screw over or disappoint over the next few days/months.

doing anything for longer than five seconds is almost impossible.

so i figure it's necessary to apologise in advance.

i'm sorry.

please, bear with me.

i really am not trying to upset you or hurt you,

i just might by accident.

by doing stupid things, like,

i'll probably beg you all to see me,

then cancel at the last second.

i'm sorry.

i feel sick.

so this is just a heads up.

(y)

love katie.

~there aint no party like my nanna's tea party~flightoftheconchords

2010-06-30T03:44:00.000-07:00

so i am being tough

and, my gosh, i am smiling.

oh my, how the tables have turned!

~we are the music makers,

we are the dreamers of dreams~

i went for a job at the art gallery.

i really really hope i get it

*crosses fingers*

oh, yes. this is my favourite shelf on my bookshelf.

omnom.

i was bored.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7S_ggn0woQc

(something about the guitars just made this oh so much hotter)

C":

~i've waited hours for this. i've made myself so sick. i wish i stayed asleep today~thecure

2010-06-27T01:01:00.000-07:00

dear blog,

it's been a while since we have chatted. how are you?

me? i am.... fine. :3

i have finished a book called Betrayal last night, the first book in a trilogy by Fiona McIntosh.

it has all the things i like: men on horses, lots of blood and killing, travelling gypsies, psychics, secretive sorcerers, kings, queens, a tiny bit of ever lasting love (but not too much) and just a dollop of lust. i went out and bought the second book 'Revenge', because Betrayal made me cry. not like that's difficult to do. Toy Story Three made me cry. But come on, it's pretty heart wrenching! i have a woody doll.... i wont give him away.... or throw him out... *cries*

ahem. moving on...

my friends meg and kim have decided that myself and a total stranger are in love. i am not sure how this happened, but i am befuddled and terrified. haha. poor boy. it isn't nice having to love not only a complete stranger, but an insane blogging stranger who likes to drive fast and pick flowers. all without even being aware of it... let's not enlighten him. :/

okok.

im going to stop right here before i say anything personal and bullshit.

i'll save that for my picture drawing and nonsense writing that i don't post here. :P

Book: Dead In The Family by Charlaine Harris. It may be sex fuelled pop fiction that has way too much drama, but, it felt really good to be reading Sookie again. I missed that 'days of our lives' way of her and her associates... it took me back to year twelve when i was that rebel kid sitting at the back of all her classes reading books. or hiding in the art room. i was hard core. lol.

Movie: Toy Story Three. of course. I am in the local Freeza group, Distortion and we ran the, idk what you call it, opening night? for toystory three. I dressed up as a penguin. a gosh darn sexy penguin :P It was a fabulous movie. i really enjoyed the references back to the original toystory and spanish buzz tickled my fancy. i believe i laughed so hard my penguin make-up was almost destroyed... you will laugh. you will cry. (unless you're the incredibly good looking, suspected android-man who frightened my mother by not moving or making a sound throughout the entire movie. just a tad disturbing :s)

Song: Tiny Vessels by Deathcabforcutie. my headphones have been filled with them.

Youtube: here i put the links to old ruddy boy's fairwell speech:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRaLlJJXWIU&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BURrcuCyMo8

(part one seems to be missing to me... it was there a minute ago, i swear!)

maybe it's because i feel sorry for the unpopular kid, maybe it's because i have a soft spot for glasses, but i just wanted to give him a great big cuddle. poor thing. it hurts to be kicked out of the group...

okay. soppy blog. sorry. i was goign to give you picture.... but i lost it. sorry.

lots of love, katie.

ttfn.

~sorrow drips into your heart through a pin hole~deathcabforcutie

2010-06-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

an old volvo.

the air was cold.

her hand on his knee.

the abandoned church.

we watched the stars.

i have memories...

~darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?~mumfordandsons

2010-06-09T00:55:00.000-07:00

going away soon.
i want to spend some quality time with my paints.
accompanied by my ipod and a truck load of good books.
(i will take suggestions on what i should read)

i feel like raging the unthinkable rage.
but i must remained contained.
i must smile and say the right things.

:)

if anything good comes of my "holiday" i will post it for you.
and then you should say:
"gee katie, i really quite enjoy that picture, would i be able to get that printed onto a shirt?"
and i will say:
"yes indeedy, will you give me monies?"
hopefully you will then agree.

i want to go driving in cars.
i want to go driving in my car.
but i cannot do so for many reasons,
one being i dont have a licence.
another being that if i were to drive at night i would convince myself aliens are trying to abduct me then freak out and drive erratically in an uncle vernon-ish fashion.

i have many irrational fears.
like lutraphobia.
(fear of otters)
shuttup.
they have sharp teeth and scariness :s

im bored now.

book: wicked lovely by melissa marr.
i just finished it. it was very good. the fae are so much better now that i am older. i think i shall return to my childhood obsession. (i was a fairy-crazed little girl who drove my nanna bonkers by insisting her garden was full of fairies that must be caught)

movie: forest gump.
awesomest movie EVER.
"i just felt like running"

food: garlic,chillie&lime prawns that i got cooked for me for my birthday.
absolutely nommy. especially because they didn't pioson me like the cook threatend they might.
:)

song:

im REALLY bored now.
toodles.

~youth is like diamonds in the sun~youthgroup

2010-06-07T04:14:00.000-07:00

this is the last blog i will ever write.....

as an eighteen year old.

~hello darkness, my old friend~simonandgarfunkel

2010-06-01T02:41:00.000-07:00

going on a holiday soon.

i don't know if i will have access to internet.

i don't know what work will think about short notice.

me, some books and my art supplies.

may be gone a little while.

i will return.

dw.

movie: Secret Window. currently loaned to my friend (who better not scratch it or i might kill him and bury him in my vegetable patch). Johnny Depp and Stephen King *jizz* so so yumtastic. if you don't like happily ever afters this is a good movie for you. (y)

book: i have just today finished Need by Carrie Jones. i very much liked it. and i like that i was right about the plot.. it doesn't bother me that it was a tad predictable, because the constant phobias throughout the book kept me sufficiently entertained... cute and quirky female characters too. my favourite phobias mentioned (because i have to):

Autophobia - fear of oneself. fear of being alone.

Mnemophobia - fear of memories.

Philophobia - fear of love.

Scotophobia - fear of darkness.

Agateophobia - fear of insanity.

(if they aren't correct blame miss Jones)

song:

red jumpsuit apparatus, makes me remember being fifteen. :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cOqua-Cny4g

youtube video:

i saw it on tv. funniest ad i've seen in a fair while.. lol.

i made pancakes for breakfast today.

toodles. xo.

~choking on these words~angusandjuliastone

2010-05-30T05:51:00.000-07:00

to play loud:

~a white blank page and a swelling rage~mumfordandsons

2010-05-27T03:13:00.000-07:00

Fickle:

adj

Not fixed or firm; liable to change; unstable; of a changeable mind; not firm in opinion or purpose; inconstant.

today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day. today is a bad day.

blink182. i like them. if you don't like them i don't care because i like them. they should hurry up and come to australia and play me this song and i will sing along and it will be good.

i want.

sometimes do you feel very small? like you are not really a grown up but are actually a child stuck inside of a grown up's body. and that you really just want to curl up and disappear because it is a scary world full of monsters and you can't find your nightlight....

sometimes i feel like i am small.

favourite advice from last weekend: "if you get sad, stop being sad and be awesome."

this was from intoxicated duck. it actually made me smile.

i want to leave on that happy note.

toodles.

~we need to feel breathless with love and not collapsed under it's weight~snowpatrol

2010-05-24T18:33:00.000-07:00

i am sick.

it is quite disgusting.

if you looked up 'blerg' in the dictionary you would find a picture of me.

so im carrying a box of tissues with me everywhere.

and winging to mum....

the real reason i wanted to blog:

crossing my fingers and hoping i will return to my normal state rather than being Blerg.

have a loverly day inside by the fire with a hot beverage and a good book. i suggest harry potter.

toodles reader.

~when i look out there it makes me glad im not you~valveorchestra

2010-05-22T03:24:00.000-07:00

i will never love you more than vegemite toast.

i've nothing much interesting to say.

i have worked this week alot. i am tired.

i miss my girlfriends.

boys continue to irritate me to no end.

[boycott love.]

fall out boy expresses so much i feel.

voice is still broken.

amongst other things....

driving in cars with boys = unwise, but fun.

bought napoleon dynamite.

win.

harry potter is the ultimate self help book.

only other fanatics will understand.

cigarettes are bad for you.

i smell like bubblegum :3

reading: harry potter.

hearing: Fall Out Boy with occasional outbursts of Danke Schoen by Wayne Newton

youtubing: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NCt2nZF2nLk

blame my gaming nerd of a brother. love him.

drinking: vodka and raspberry (because im a girl now)

eating: vegemite toast.

told you i had nothing to say :P stop reading now.

i said stop.

geez.

go home.

*leaves*

~boycott love. detox just to retox~falloutboy

2010-05-15T21:40:00.000-07:00

dictionary meaning for today:
Boycott - verb.

1. to refuse to use or deal with, as a method of protest or threat.

the song i just can't stop listening to at the moment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjMiDZIY1bM

seriously, who doesn't love songs about zombies? my little brother showed this to me...
nice to know he's good for something. :3

book that i am reading:

Hush Hush - Becca Fitzpatrick.

i don't really like it. it's all very predictable. all it has taught me is that apparently fallen angels are just as irritatingly arrogant and brooding as vampires. this angers me. but i rarely put a book down once i've started so, just a few more chapters of cliché courtship/sexual tension and i'm done... read if you enjoyed Twilight. *chokes on bile*

best advice over drinks on my Saturday night:

given to me by a girl i had only just met, but who turned out to be super cool. she said to me that women shouldn't pour so much effort into boys because "men never appreciate the effort women put in". i have decided to take this advice and stop with chasing boys... *feels empowered*

lol.

movie:

i watched hairspray last night.

something about John Travolta as a fat women scares and intrigues me... i loved it. (y)

and finally a youtube video to sum up my sunday. if i hadn't lost my voice, i would sing it to you, but alas all i can produce are weak squeaky noises :s

the best sunday song i have found. lol. bessst.

~i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell~matchboxtwenty

2010-05-12T02:24:00.000-07:00

"Teenagers can be some of the cruelest creatures on Earth."
How To Be A Normal Teenager - Wikihow.

i found it quite accurate so far.

[shuffle]

it's that itching in your blood, that thumping in your chest. it's in the corner of your eye, you know your not at your best....

whispers in your ear, steals your breath. crawls across your skin, tinkers with your head, within your mind it makes a nest...

"paranoid people are following me"

[shuffle]
how are you today? well? i hope so.
i wish only good things upon you, dear person who has taken the time to read my blog.
i suppose trying to make some sort of sense or flow from my posts would be an arduous task.
i suggest you just pretend different people have written each post....
thought: if you are a stalker, thankyou for the attention, but i do not wish you well. at all. the mere idea of you scares me. :3

[shuffle]

ok. i have a confession.

i am kindof obsessed with the libra ad.

i think it's fantastic.

i only hope i find a man with such obvious awesome.

don't tell me that isn't boyfriend material. ha.

it's up there with the article on Tony Abbot in Frankie this month.

gosh i love Frankie <3>

well, i've found a video blog that is much better than mine blog.

i will leave you with a song and then neglect you for a while.

seee ya!

~i can't get no satisfaction~therollingstones

2010-05-09T00:54:00.001-07:00

self-control
n
the ability to exercise restraint or control over one's feelings, emotions, reactions, etc.

chaos
n
1. complete disorder; utter confusion

pick which best describes me. hmmmm......

so i did go out. it is a long and funny story.
shortened; we rocked up at the wrong party, wandered around to every other bar, ended up at gv, danced and drank copious amounts and i also found a pretty blond. got a warning from the bar staff and then i tottered off home.
i had an awesome night. stoked.

though not having my keys and having to be let in at four in the morning by dad was not the best. nor was work in this morning....
sunday mornings equal reanimate corps katie. =.=

my gosh, at work, there was this MASSIVE MUTANT BUG.
i nearly died.
it was horrible and hairy. we swear it had two heads and pincers. AND IT CHASED ME! panic!! luckily i and another girl were saved. it may have been gruesome had we not been... *shudder*

i want to go to Geelong to visit Joel. and possibly draw on him.
do trains go from here to there? im not sure...

anyways, i'm woffling on. (because i'm trying to fill in time while my dinner cooks)
it's probably a good time to stop.
which means a song.
are you excited?
i am.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0cJnVeiMrw
very appropriate i think.

~wild thing, i think i love you~thetroggs

2010-05-08T01:15:00.000-07:00

quote of the day goes to my work mate Jessie (yes, i do sing Jessie's girls to him often)

he said:

"Everyone has a Penny out there."

in reference to Big Bang Theory. a popular tv show. i love it. he has earned cool points.

about to get my heals on :s

i hope i don't fall over and die.

too bad if i do i suppose..... but still :s

i bought a new hat. :3

i hope this irritates my friend lachlan. he hates my hats. i love them.

it is a sherpa hat. squeee.... *pulls it on head joyously*

going to a party. i hate going to parties. i like being AT parties. not going TO them. or getting ready. i freak out. and get all self conscious. :s

i have found that the only cure is a shot of anything. absinthe works well.... :s

so i am sitting here. with my hair half done. freaking out.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh.

wish me luck.

(didn't really know what to put as my song today, so here is this:)

2010-05-06T23:01:00.000-07:00

i have decided that i want to learn how to play the ukulele,

this is why;

Sea Of Love - CatPower.

i am reading a new series of novels,

in the novels there is a girl.

she is very self sufficient.

it makes me want to take up self defence.

i want to be all independent like her.

and she is a magician,

something i have wished was real since Harry Potter first came out.

(still hoping for a letter from Hogwarts)

lol.

in other news, i am helping out a uni friend with the art side of a project he is doing.

he may be fantastically smart, but he can't even draw a loveheart.

it's nice to feel needed.

in return i am requesting his musical skill to help me learn a song

for a competition that i am no longer sure will even be running.

oh well.

here is a song i would like to sing:

~but if you wont, then you wont~benfolds

2010-05-04T22:42:00.000-07:00

"It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live."

Albus Dumbledore.

I think it's about time i re-read Harry Potter.
Speaking of books, Tomorrow When The War Began, by John Marsden is coming out in cinemas soon.
preview:

I'm peeved because the cast is nothing like i imagined them. -.-"

I guess that's to be expected though, I'm still definitely going to see it.

Speaking of movies, I took the lovely Bree out on a date to see Iron Man 2.

I mean, who can resist Robert Downey Jr?

Not me!

omnomnom...

I'm making pasta for dinner tonight.

with olives and anchovies and garlic.

yum.

I might make it soon. As the sooner that i make it, the sooner I can EAT it!!

So far my trying to be a chef with no recipes is going okay.
I've only had one fail, and now I know what not to put mushrooms in. :s

That's one good reason to move out with me Kim.
We wont starve.

I am hungry.
Know that I am cooking possibly the best pasta ever as you read this.
I hope you are jealous.

ttfn.

xo.

~i love the mayhem more than the love~falloutboy

2010-05-03T01:04:00.000-07:00

taking the back way home, headphones on, belting out fall out boy. i look up, there are a whole load of boys in the garage of the house at the end of the railway, pissing themselves laughing..... i did a dance move and kept going.

today has been a day for Johnny Cash, Roy Orbison and Elvis Presley.... and somehow FallOutBoy managed to sneak their cute little bottoms in there too.

but, seeing as the formers are classic musicians who will conquer time, my music posts today will be of them :3

(sorry patrick, i still want to marry you.)

also, i re-joined distortion today as it raises my feelings of self-worth. i am not sure why, but it does :)

if anything it should raise my feelings of erratic craziness as we fling wild ideas about the room.

any excuse to dress up, im there! x)

it is now that i leave you,

my departing gift is for your ears.

enjoy. xo.

p.s. if love is a drug, i am an addict.

~if home is where the heart is, then we're all just fucked~falloutboy

2010-04-26T23:35:00.000-07:00

i want to see fall out boy again.... i do i do.

off to go to the movies with my pretty pokemon friend :3

lol.

finally going to see 'how to train your dragon'. last time i was not allowed to go.

stupid men. best to be rid of them.

just to keep with the 'i love fall out boy' theme, here is a wonderful song.

~i want you to want me, i need you to need me~cheaptrick

2010-04-26T04:23:00.000-07:00

Heart:

Head: "what the hell do you think you are doing?! Danger Ahead! WARNING! WARNING! Abort mission! Abort Mission!! DANGER!"

Tummy: "Hey guys, there's a whole heap of butterflies here and it's starting to make me uncomfortable...."

yes. i do converse with myself. and yes. i do have conflict between my internal organs. they often disagree on my course of action. i don't listen to any of them much....

i had a nice day today... heart: "yeah, apart from the excruciating pain of the world... oh look! he's pretty. ouch, that hurt." head: "stop misleading her! we must continue to further my education. there's no more time for this nonsense." tummy: "why did you give me kfc? whyyyyyyyyy??"

:s confusing, yes?

here is a song. enjoy.

~this is giving me the shakes and the butterflies~sherwood.

2010-04-25T05:08:00.000-07:00

tears flood my eyes.

dragons war in my stomach.

i can hear the blood rushing in my ears.

my heart pounds, begging to escape my chest.

my dear heart, if i could set you free i would,

but you got us into this mess,
we go through the consequences together....

"i am a war of head verses heart,
it's always been this way.
my head is weak,
my heart always speaks,
before i know what it will say."

-DeathCabForCutie

have you noticed how falling in love and having your heart torn out have the same effect on your body? funny that....

~another day, another chance that it will be alright~thesubways.

2010-04-24T05:04:00.000-07:00

you defeat my ninja skills.

today i went to work.

i talked to my friends.

i smiled.

i laughed.

i got up before one in the afternoon.

i learnt some girls will always be bitches.

i laughed some more.

i watched anime.

today has been a well adjusted day.

~this town is full of monsters~theboyleastlikelyto

2010-04-22T20:26:00.000-07:00

my dear concerned friend evie has leant me some of her books as i had nothing to read.

when i have nothing to read i have to deal with every day, boring, life.

this distresses me to no end.

so, i am reading a series of vampire novels.

before i launch into my rant, id like to admit i am enjoying the read.

the story lines are very good and most characters i find hilarious.

especially roxy, as that is my car's name. ha.

but. my patience with vampires is thinning.

i have read a fair few vampire novels, so though i am not an expert,

i have come across many similarities between the leading male heart throbs.

it leads to me to the question of why.

why are these women so stupid?

do you really want to spend the rest of eternity with a stubborn, arrogant, jerk who treats you as a possession more than a human being?

sure the sex is good, but really, that's a pretty shallow thing to base a relationship that will outlive everyone on.

and all the emotional blackmail, gah! i cant stand it.

i have a feeling i ranted about this before, but, i am still pissed.

overpowering, dominant males would crush the lead female into a simpering mess that ends with her begging for eternity with the pig-headed prick and doubting she can survive without him.

i personally think it is a form of emotional abuse.

so xP

i will not be falling in love with any vampires if i can help it.

that's my venting done.

how are you?

lol.

i have a song,

would you like a song?

it is a very good song.

listen to this song.

i do like it alot.

~doesn't it sound familiar. doesn't it hit too close to home. doesn't it make you shiver, the way things could have gone~missyhiggins

2010-04-20T20:35:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghPcYqn0p4Y

~you got me where you want me but i aint all there~jessicaleemayfield

2010-04-20T01:33:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJKythlXAIY

today i made an effort.

i cleaned my room.

for anyone who knows me, this a rare and epic task for me to complete.

i often pay my mum to do it. that is how bad i am.

but i cleaned everything... ish.

and i even cleaned out all the stuff my 'friend' left at my house.

and even as i was completing this astounding amazing trick,

i managed to run out of anime to watch.

luckily for me i have a thomasey friend who is willing to come watch anime with me on the weekend. for this i am glad. :3

and i get to have a harry potter marathon with my bestest best friend kim.

kim is probably the awesomest female on this planet. (possibly because she is not from earth.

well, thats just my theory anyways)

and i get to go out to a something on friday. im not exactly sure WHAT it is, just that emily is taking me. im cool with that...

oh, oh! and i have a new vampire series to read which the lovely evie lended me.

she has the best job ever because she works in a book shop and i am jealous.

i dont understand why there is always ALWAYS so much sexual tention and arrogance in vampire novels. i guess sex sells. but why do they have to be so overly pig-headed? bastards.

here are some things to go with the toothy theme:

see more Lol Celebs

~it felt less like a lake and more like a moat~deathcabforcutie

2010-04-18T00:58:00.000-07:00

~looking like a limb torn off~

i have taken to walking.
it calms the mind and gives the illusion of doing something.
i don't know why, but i always end up at the end of Corio street.

[shuffle]

the shards of my heart are sharp.

they cut deep.

with every breath i take there is pain.
i am not the first person,

nor will i be the last, to feel like this.

around the world doors are closing.

cars are starting.
lips are touching.
in departure.

i am not alone in the world.

it just feels like i am.

FOR SALE.

one heart.

i am so willing to love.
i can be funny, i might make you laugh.
i will pick you flowers, and stay silent for hours.

i can draw you pictures and write you words.

i will listen and i will care and i am honest.

i dance and sing and fall over quite alot.

i like to do things and go places.

i can cook food for you too.

very enthusiastic.

wide eyed.

small.

only slightly damaged.

to good home.

couldn't get the video to work.

here is the link.

do watch it.

it's good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YdELkbqC53M

its monday.

i want goon.

problems of a middle class white kid.

~fine words from a sailor's son, who's always running away~angus&juliastone

2010-04-16T23:39:00.000-07:00

i am sick of chasing boys.

~when you get time to feel anything~

do you know who you are?

are you completed?

are you happy?

i am going to see Mumford and Sons with emily.

i am very excited. here is a picture of emily and i.

we will dance and sing and be merry.
*shakes fist threateningly*

or else.

i have been to Canberra.

i saw the Masterpieces from Paris exhibition.

it was like meeting a rockstar.

i could not stop staring.

there were too many people and the pieces weren't hung high enough.
but.

i saw Van Gogh's Starry Night.
it was... well, words cannot describe it.

it took my breath away.

i tried to eat it with my eyes.

memorising every centimetre.

and it's true that it just cant be reproduced.

all the prints, the colours aren't right.

i don't know why...

i am gushing.

shuttup katie.

*deep breath*

this blog has gotten long...

here is a song.
it is a good song.

enjoy this good song.

you know how i feel.

~will your heart still beat for me, or will it march to a new beat~city&colour

2010-04-13T20:26:00.000-07:00

"these violent delights,

have violent ends
and in their triumph die,
like fire and powder which
as they kiss consume."
Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet.

i had a dream last night.
you came to me in the dead of night,
you came and took me away.
beneath the shelter of wizened trees,
we watched the starlight fall over us.
you drew my breath away from me,
cunningly captured my heart within yours,
i prayed i would never wake.
as the morninglight crept,
silently across my pillow,
i opened my eyes.

it seems i was never dreaming.

365 project.

~things aren't so beautiful now~athornforeveryheart.

2010-04-11T20:53:00.000-07:00

the caption at the bottom of this video:
"This video was shot on February 14th 2006. It is a protest video...
The presentable version was cut down from 47 minutes to the ap. 5:40 feature."

i found this inspirational.
and so i share it with you, with hope for our hearts.

love, katie. xo.

~bury me standing at your window~falloutboy

2010-04-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

"dakishimetai no ni"

i am watching this at the moment... it is chobits.
"i hope that i will meet someone. someone just for me"
-a city with no people, chobits.

the other, danced the dance
of a marionette
with a few too many masters
and tangled string
dancing to someone else’s tune
knowing the at some level the fate
he would bear for the choice
to dance

a pawn on the larger stage
and in his home

a king in name
but not in reality
pushed by masters
to follow their lead
not his own heart
knowing the wrong
he committed

-Raymond A Foss.

pull the strings and watch us dance.
tangled and distressed.
when you are gone, we hang limp and lifeless.
no characters for us to play.
how could you leave like this?
walking away with our identity.

lonely, lost, little mess.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-J4XXx4_XYs

~i took my love and i took it down~dixiechicks

2010-04-09T20:22:00.000-07:00

just letting my thoughts flow. feel free to read, but not to judge.

hearts are broken everyday.
i'm sure these feelings will pass,
colour will seep back into grey.
i wont be walking on glass....

through my tunnel vision i will see,
you weren't ever to change your ways,
and with that truth i'll be set free.

though i may not sleep for days...

so i'll wear you on my sleeve,
for the whole world to witness.
as for all the holes that you will leave,

they just let in the darkness...

i won't be sending you letters,
i wont be singing you songs.
because it wont make me feel better,
and the melody's all wrong.

i suppose you wont see this,
and i doubt that you'll care.
but maybe one day you'll notice,
and wish i were there.

~you could be happy, i hope you are~snowpatrol

2010-04-07T20:06:00.000-07:00

chopping onions is good for the soul...

i cooked fried rice for dinner. i didn't die.

lucy, mew should have come back in the end.
i love this anime, but how could he live without mew?
Elfen Lied. do watch it.

i hope you had a lovely wednesday.
i get to see kim on friday.
this makes the world a better place.

~watch out cupid struck me with a sickness~metric

2010-04-06T04:52:00.000-07:00

a scene from the anime i'm currently watching.

i miss a boy. he's gone away and it seems he took my heart with him.

hopefully he'll send it back in the mail.

it's getting pretty worn and torn, poor little thing.

if i keep giving away pieces of my heart, i'm not going to have any left to give.

can you grow new, shiny, whole ones?

i don't think so...

i hear pig hearts work perfectly well, but...

maybe i'll shine it up with some shoe polish.

perhaps it's about time i stop wearing it on my sleeve,

where it's open to all the elements.

hmm...

~everyone's got their chance to brake, holding you~

2010-04-04T04:51:00.000-07:00

i just wish i knew who you were.

~i could use a hero right now, you could use someone to save~ jack'smannequin

2010-04-03T02:19:00.000-07:00

hi, im katie. i was bored so i decided to look up a bunch of songs with katie in them.

im upset and probably shouldn't blog, but i tend to blog at these times.

i've been sitting here for the last few hours chatting to my old friend james. he is such a nice guy.

he was watching space jam, i was watching goofy movie.

he doesnt know how to fux my computer, but assures me i wont die.

but just incase, maybe il ask kim. she knows the technological world WAY better than i do.

im very confused.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PIllQQwRxc

this ones for james.

shuffle shuffle itunes, sing my song.

2010-04-01T21:27:00.000-07:00

"i am small and needy."

breath me -sia.

"unfold your paper heart and wear it on your sleeve..."

"i forget the last time i felt brave. i just recall insecurity."

tidal wave - owl city.

"this solitary moment makes me want to come back home..."

"i was born to tell you i love you."

your call - secondhand serenade.

"they move so smoothe but have no answers."

hard headed woman - cat stevens

"words for fighting, words for fun, all melt into one."

alarmed - built to spill.

i put my ipod on shuffle, these are some lines from the first few songs...

that's boredom for you.

~i guess this is growing up~blink182

2010-03-24T21:35:00.000-07:00

hi there, i am the katiemonster.

i prefer lowercase.

i decided to start this blog as it seems i am too old for myspace.

i will miss my myspace blog, we have been through alot together;

falling over oursleves in love, brakings of ours and other's hearts,

favourite movies, foods, artists and fashion fads.

we spent hours obsessing over lyrics and poetry.

it has also been wiped clean quite afew times....

so, new blog, i am hoping we can have just as meaningful (if not even more) relationship.

i promise to try and give you loves and attention,

so long as i can seek the same of you.

i dont really write for the readers who may flitter past,
i write for myself.

even though blogs are a particularly public place.

but maybe i like this 'emotional streaking' in the literatical form.

also note, i think i make up words alot.

i can not spell either.

so here's to happy begginings!

hoorah.

"now it's time for changing,

and cleansing everything...

my plug in baby,

crucifies my enemies,

when im tired of giving."

katiemonster - katie eat world

~i like the dirt that's on your knees~nickleback

keats

you will be missed.

~i want something else to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life~thirdeyeblind

~hold me, wrap me up, unfold me~sia

duck says 'be awesome'

~don't you slip in love with the girls on the avenue~richardclapton

summer

o this summer coming, i promise to embrace you.

i will soak you into my skin as i never have before.

i long for you like lovers lost.to dear summer coming, i am waiting.

how many cups of sugar does it take to get to the moon?

~crazy, crazy for feeling so lonely. i'm crazy, crazy for feeling so blue~patsycline

~i don't the world to see me, because i don't think that they'd understand~googoodolls

il m'aime....... pas du tout...

~life's too short to be afraid~robbiewilliams

~a pair of star-crossed lovers take their lives~shakespeare

these violent delights have violent ends.

then we got to the intersection and your blinker blinked right and mine blinked left. that was the end of the story...

i guess.

~just gonna stand there~eminem

you were a truth i would rather lost than to have never lain beside at all~deathcabforcutie

~i have friends who (lalalalie) will help me pull through~jack'smannequin

~oh instincts are misleading, you shouldn't think what you're feeling~deathcabforcutie

~separate's always better when there's feelings involved~outkast

salty wenches

~love will not betray you, dismay, or enslave you. it will set you free~mumfordandsons

man overboard - blink182

~love don't live here anymore~dallasgreen

~a candy-coloured clown they call the sandman~royorbison

just one reason why my mum is adorable

~i'll sit at home and refine the person i want to be~charleighissocoollike

~when city streets, a mess with people, stop to hold their heads heavy~imogenheap

~such a quiet joy~gotye

~i want someone provocative and talkative, but it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower~cuteiswhatweaimfor

this too shall pass.

~there aint no party like my nanna's tea party~flightoftheconchords

~i've waited hours for this. i've made myself so sick. i wish i stayed asleep today~thecure

~sorrow drips into your heart through a pin hole~deathcabforcutie

~darkness is a harsh term don’t you think?~mumfordandsons

~youth is like diamonds in the sun~youthgroup

~hello darkness, my old friend~simonandgarfunkel

~choking on these words~angusandjuliastone

~a white blank page and a swelling rage~mumfordandsons

~we need to feel breathless with love and not collapsed under it's weight~snowpatrol

~when i look out there it makes me glad im not you~valveorchestra

~boycott love. detox just to retox~falloutboy

~i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell~matchboxtwenty

~i can't get no satisfaction~therollingstones

~wild thing, i think i love you~thetroggs

~but if you wont, then you wont~benfolds

~i love the mayhem more than the love~falloutboy

taking the back way home, headphones on, belting out fall out boy. i look up, there are a whole load of boys in the garage of the house at the end of the railway, pissing themselves laughing..... i did a dance move and kept going.

~if home is where the heart is, then we're all just fucked~falloutboy

~i want you to want me, i need you to need me~cheaptrick

~this is giving me the shakes and the butterflies~sherwood.

~another day, another chance that it will be alright~thesubways.

~this town is full of monsters~theboyleastlikelyto

~doesn't it sound familiar. doesn't it hit too close to home. doesn't it make you shiver, the way things could have gone~missyhiggins

~you got me where you want me but i aint all there~jessicaleemayfield

~it felt less like a lake and more like a moat~deathcabforcutie

~fine words from a sailor's son, who's always running away~angus&juliastone

~will your heart still beat for me, or will it march to a new beat~city&colour

~things aren't so beautiful now~athornforeveryheart.

~bury me standing at your window~falloutboy

~i took my love and i took it down~dixiechicks

~you could be happy, i hope you are~snowpatrol

~watch out cupid struck me with a sickness~metric

~everyone's got their chance to brake, holding you~

~i could use a hero right now, you could use someone to save~ jack'smannequin

shuffle shuffle itunes, sing my song.

~i guess this is growing up~blink182

i long for you like lovers lost.
to dear summer coming, i am waiting.